We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Obsess​/​Release

by Austin R. Scott

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $7 USD  or more

     

1.
I can't do this anymore I'm not a hero, not a savior But a hollow visage plated up in gold I can't do this anymore For the burden of a guilt I never owned And yet is in control (Sometimes you must go) In a while where will I be? Will I still feel like I am me? Will I find what I seek? (Some must be alone) Swallowed by a sea Finding up from gravity Am I crazy? (Trust in your future) I'm not that person anymore But the walls that we put up They don't come down until you're rotting in your soul I'm not that person anymore It's the fear that never leaves us That prevents us from the knowledge that we're whole (Sometimes you must go) Gave away myself for free Gaining back identity Find the true reality (Some must be alone) It's a lock without a key It's an unsolved mystery Am I crazy? (Trust in your future) After all the bitter days You rejected honest praise Chose to walk the broken ways And wallow in self-doubt Blind to what they saw in you You didn't do what you could do Threw away the good and true And you said there's no way out But there's always a way But there's always a way (Sometimes you must go) Suffer in my ecstasy I become an effigy I succumb to fantasy (Some must be alone) Time to taste a victory Time that curses be released Time to follow dreams (Trust in your future)
2.
Monochrome 05:16
Doing everything for the first time, again Livin' the same life in a new set of eyes Spin, spin, spin, until we finally let go And I need you, wonder if you're with me Gotta step out on my own (Whoa, whoa) Sure you'll be there to meet me But we're both so far from home (Whoa, whoa) Haven't I seen your face somewhere? I know it's not polite to continue to stare Your name I once knew so well, stops at the tip of my tongue And I need you, wonder if you're with me Gotta step out on my own (Whoa, whoa) Sure you'll be there to meet me But we're both so far from home (Whoa, whoa) Before I met you, babe Everything was monochrome (Whoa, whoa) Felt so off my game Gotten back now to my zone (Whoa, whoa) If we both live or die But then in-between try Both to open our eyes At the end we realize That forgiveness is our prize Evolution is our prize Full awareness is our prize True community will rise Wish I could see into you like before Apart makes us understand togetherness more And isn't understanding what we're here for? And I need you, wonder if you're with me Gotta step out on my own (Whoa, whoa) Sure you'll be there to meet me But we're both so far from home (Whoa, whoa) Before I met you, babe Everything was monochrome (Whoa, whoa) Felt so off my game Gotten back now to my zone (Whoa, whoa)
3.
Daylight 02:56
The calm of the storm has come You'll find your way back home You'll believe in a future sun When your heart's prepared to roam When everything just isn't worth it anymore You'll find your way out and come walking through that door Into the sunshine Into the love Into the daylight coming down from up above Into the realization of how much you're worth There's a reason that you're living on this earth There's a reason that you walk upon the earth The rain on the ground is dry It left a clearer sky And you've been in the dark Come on out have another try When you see that the world is as it should be You'll find out life is better when you think of all that could be In the sunshine In the love In the daylight coming down from up above In the realization of how much you're worth There's a reason that you're living on this earth There's a reason that you walk upon the earth Don't ever ask yourself how much you're worth There's a reason for each one upon the earth
4.
Orion 05:10
Orion, I've been lying in the grass for three whole days Orion, I've been standing all alone for three whole years Orion, you've been aiming in the dark as long as time I wonder if what you're shooting at is worth your blood and tears It's funny, how you hesitate before you let pain go It's sad, how the dreams you had were never all your own It's shocking, we're not measured by success, but rather, failure It's better, when your joy is not a tribute that you owe Then the past gets louder She's tugging at your arm You shouldn't have allowed her To cause you so much harm You're aiming at your heart that holds your dreams and all ambitions The bowstring is all that lies between you and your mission And you hesitate, can't you let the girl go and move along? No, no, no I feel your pain, because I know that giving up, it just feels wrong Then your heartbeat pauses Could life go on alone? So many different causes And none of them your own You couldn't loose the arrow Your heart was trapped in love Is that the reason why, Orion Is that the reason why, Orion You still appear above?
5.
Only History 04:10
I wash myself down the drain Rinse out emotions, try to scrub away the drain I have nothing left to gain I have all I need is to give it all away But there's a winding road before me Is only mystery And all I feel right now inside of me Is only history, oh, oh, yeah I crucify all my tears I try to make my mind to disappear I try to make my skies clear Guess I'm meant to be this way, at least that's how it appears But there's a winding road before me Is only mystery And all I feel right now inside of me Is only history (Don't let it go) (Don't let it go) But I wanna let it go, yeah I wanna let it go (Don't let it go) (Don't let it go) But I wanna let it go I wanna let it go I let the past softly die I've got better things to do than sit and wonder why I learn how to say goodbye Not everyone can win, but someone's gotta try But there's a winding road before me Is only mystery And all I feel right now inside of me Is only history And all I feel right now inside of me Is only history Is only history Is only history
6.
Want to express what I should not say The words will simply get me carried away And I would love to play Up and down I swore that I would never let me feel this way Way, way, way, way better than I should Untethering my heart could never be this good Hoping that I haven't misunderstood But just in case, I better knock on wood How much more time 'til I'm sober? Maybe it's real after all Why did I want to jump over? How much further do I have to fall? I find a four leaf clover Maybe it's real after all, oh Is risk the only thing that makes me feel? Whoa Unwrapping bandages because I'm head over heel Never had considered purple with teal It's coming out of nowhere, but the moment is real The here and the now are what I have to hold The past defined us, but the definition is old If the future were known and the future were told Only without precognition could an action be bold Risk yourself upon intention Risk yourself not knowing This, the perfect catalyst for Understanding, learning, growing Moving in the direction of a fuller wiser love We must cultivate affection for the purposes above Get out of my own way, whoa Get out of my own way, whoa (Get out of my own way) (Get out of my own way) (Get out of my own way) How much more time 'til I'm sober? Maybe it's real after all Why did I want to jump over? How much further do I have to fall? I find a four leaf clover Maybe it's real after all Never want this to be over Falling, I might as well fall Get out of my own way, whoa (Get out of my own way) Get out of my own way, whoa (Get out of my own way) (Get out of my own way) Get out of my own way, oh (Get out of my own way)
7.
Perfect 05:00
The clouds rolling in today Whose breeze blows them in? All the players are gonna play I choose who will win Everything will go my way Bright or dark as sin And the things I need to say I need to say within You wanna go home But you're here Open your eyes And look in the mirror It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect See behind the thick façade Unimpressed with fame Failing to explain the odd Reasons why we came You call an open mind too broad Until you get the game You label things as falsely flawed But I offer no blame You wanna go home But you're here Open your eyes And look in the mirror It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect Trapped without an out, I cried And my vision blind When I taught myself, I lied Limited my mind Universe is open wide Free of every bind Easter eggs I hid inside Left for me to find You wanna go home But you're here Open your eyes And look in the mirror It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect It's all perfect

about

Recorded from November 2017-January 2018.

credits

released February 5, 2018

Female vocals on Monochrome and Perfect were recorded by Leah Herman.
Drums on Only History were recorded by Daylan Rhea.
Otherwise, all songwriting, arrangement, recording, playing, singing, editing, mixing, evaluating, tearing hair out, re-mixing, re-evaluating, obsessing, re-mixing, mastering, et cetera—was done by yours truly, Austin Ronald Scott.

SPECIAL THANKS:

Mom and Dad - Thank you so much for supporting my music, for sacrificing your own security and comfort to provide me with a future, and for teaching me how to love myself and other people.

Grandma - I miss you so much. All of my greatest achievements are built on your love and support.

Chuck Wayne - I miss you too. There are so many questions I wish I could ask, and I wish I could still share music with you today.

Danielle Dillon - Thank you for encouraging me to leave and to do this work, and for giving me the independence to pursue my work. Thank you for all of the love, adventures, experiences and challenges that we've shared these past 4 years. You have inspired me to become a better person in ways I could have never thought of, and you have supported me in so many ways that it is overwhelming. I am so excited to see what happens in the next chapter of our lives!

Darla Bayer - Thank you for getting me involved in the creative world and being a role model! Thank you for the room, the emotional support, the network of people you've introduced me to, the fun board gaming times and the delicious smells from the kitchen that constantly wafted into my workspace. This album wouldn't exist without you!

Chris Bayer - Thank you so much for handing a 15-year-old a pennywhistle. My whole life has changed because we met. Thanks for the Christmas gift that helped me finish this album and thank you for the time you've spent with me listening and tweaking this work!

Daylan Rhea - Thanks for the help with drums, and thank you for all of the great conversations that we had. You've been a great encouragement and have helped me come to terms with some bad perspectives I had. I appreciate your friendship!

Vince Gates (Play Your Own Music) - Thank you for gifting me with that old microKORG XL! After figuring out the repair, it became an important part of much of the album. I truly appreciate the generosity.

Leah Herman - Thank you for reconnecting with me, for working on this album with me and for all the fun times in Carson! It is so good to be in touch again.

Caleb Kondor - Thank you for letting me stay with you in October! Thank you for helping me to clear my head, to remain focused, to put things in perspective—just as you've always done. Thank you for being my friend! Your encouragement helped me accomplish much more than I could have done alone!

Daniel Kondor - Thank you for being there to listen when I needed to unload, to help me find perspective by sharing your own, encouraging me when I felt down. Thank you for taking me out to dinner and giving me breaks from my self-imposed crazy schedule. Thank you for opening your home and treating me as one of the family!

June Joplin (Comma Coffee) - Thank you so much for having me play at your coffee shop every Monday! It was a highlight of my time in Carson.

Tim Buckley - Thank you for being a role model to me, a great example of kindness, generosity, tenacity and strength. Seeing you follow your dreams makes me believe that I can follow mine, and at times the family you brought together in Buckley's has been the only anchor for me in my crazy life. Forever part of the family!

Buckley's - There are too many people to thank them all individually! Thank you for supporting me for the years I've been in Seattle. Buckley's offered the support that I needed to find my own, and my life in Seattle wouldn't be the same without the love and friendships that I've found there!

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Austin R. Scott Seattle, Washington

I grew up in a small town near Carson City, NV. At age 15, I was introduced to Irish session music which became my favorite activity. When I began struggling with depression, songwriting proved itself a valuable outlet. Over the years I've honed the craft, learning how to record, edit, mix and master tracks to professional standards. I'm in the process of building a career on these skills. ... more

contact / help

Contact Austin R. Scott

Streaming and
Download help

Report this album or account

If you like Austin R. Scott, you may also like: